Contentment - Getcha some!

Contentment:

An internal satisfaction which does not demand changes in external circumstances  

I am learning to walk in true contentment with God's guidance.  I have not worked in over two years, and to be honest, the longer I can't find a job the more my esteem has slipped.  I many times feel like I will never get a job again, and that my family will have to continue to struggle because of me.  If by chance I get I job, will my skills still be intact.  These questions often plague my mind in the quiet of doing nothing daily.  What do I do...I pray and God is showing me the good in my situation.  I am home to provide stability for my family, cooking good meals instead of us eating out 4 times a week due to my sheer exhaustion from working full time.  I am there when the kids leave to be sure they are dressed appropriately, are not forgetting anything and get out of the house on time.  When they get home I am there to greet them to hear how their day was and to be sure they don't spend the entire evening relaxing instead of studying.  I have more time for my husband because he is working as much overtime as possible to keep us afloat. I can wash clothes for him, have a meal ready when he gets home.  I am not saying that my house is always clean, some days I just sit here having a pity party until I surrender my thoughts to the Lord.  Now most days, I feel good about being here for my family and also with some health issues I have had, this time has been good for taking care of me and working my way back to full health, something I could not do while working every day.

What I am trying to say is I am learning contentment.  Happiness changes with my circumstances, if I don't get the job, if the bills seem insurmountable, if I did not clean the house today...then I am unhappy.  However, I am learning to be content, worrying won’t change anything, so why waste precious time.  I asked God for His will to be done, so now who am I to be upset.  God is teaching me to look at the good, enjoy what He has blessed me with, and in doing so, my health is better, my family is happier (in spite of money issues), things are in order as God wants them to be in my life, not my way but God’s way.

Like I said some days my enemy, the devil is trying to work my mind and give me the negative viewpoint on my life, but thanks be to God who always causes me to triumph.  I am content with every blessing, test, trial, victory, year, day that I experience.  This is my first blog and it was such a release, if just one other person can read this and walk in true contentment, then this entry was a success.

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Philippians 4:6-8

6 Be careful for nothing; but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God.  7 And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.  8 Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.